We chose this life, which means we chose to only see each other half of the year, never knowing which holiday he will miss next or if he will be home for her first steps. I am an oilfield wife, who supports her husband when he is away as much as I do when he is home. I never brag or flaunt what my husband does because its not always golden in my eyes.. I give so much respect to the ladies who are single mothers, because only doing it by myself half the time is hard enough. I was up late last night thinking about how much I wish he was just there to give our daughter a kiss goodnight, hoping the next time he is home that she will know exactly who he is. Its true when they say you take the little things for granted. I miss just looking over to his side of the bed and having him there to look back at me, I miss having someone to eat dinner with, shower with, and just running errands with. Doing things all by yourself gets lonely and it almost feels like you can't get down about it because once again, we chose this life. I know he is out there working hard for his family, to make sure we have a roof over our heads and food in our mouths. I pray for my husband constantly, I know how dangerous it is and sometimes I wonder if his job is worth risking his life over. As an HR assistant the worst thing that could happen to me is a deep paper cut!! I couldn't imagine going to work everyday never knowing if you'll get to go back to bed that night. Wether your husband is a roughneck, military man, truck driver or a 9 to 5 man it is always hard to say goodbye. I've supported him through thick and thin, better or worse and in sickness and in health so I will be here every two weeks and live my life being proud of who he is.
I never thought I would find myself writing about this certain topic because its just normal to me, he is here and he is gone and that's our life. But last night we got into an argument and when you argue with someone you love who is to far away to kiss and say sorry to it really makes you stop and think. Yes, its hard for me. I'm a full time mom, employee, student and wife. But I'm never away from it for 2 weeks, I never miss a day in our daughters life and I have a nice comfortable bed to lay down in every night. Should I really be bitching? I mean what am I really sacrificing other than missing my husband every other two weeks. I should be grateful to have a hard working man willing to provide for his family! I guess we all have a moment of weakness and this happens to be mine. Please tell me I'm not the only one. I'm just selfish when it comes to his love, I want it all, all the time. However, I've come to appreciate him more when I have to watch him walk away for two weeks and I never take the time he is home for granted.
