Having a baby is the most rewarding moment in any woman's life, but with joy can also come sadness and it calls itself Postpartum Depression. Have you ever been on a diet and you were doing so good and then somebody offers you a donut and eat it with a smile on your face and then immediately after you feel horrible? Postpartum is kind of like that. You create and carry this amazing little human and with every power in your body you deliver your beautiful baby and everything is perfect, but you feel don't feel that way. It could be numerous of things, your baby is no longer inside of your belly and is exposed to everybody instead of only you. It could be because your body feels so out of place and your womanly figure is out of whack. Or it could simply be because you feel your partner is focusing more on the new baby than you. Whatever it may be don't worry it's normal and your not sick or wrong for having these feelings. I can say that because I went through the same experience and let me just say, that it does get better. Once my daughter was born I was overwhelmed with excitement as well as fear. I was worried that I may not be able to offer everything that she may need and I was always told that I was the selfish and independent type. I knew that right then my life would be completely different and I didn't know how to handle it. I found myself looking at my baby that I loved so much and would just cry, for no reason. The loss of sleep, the pain your body is in, and the constant need your baby needs was so new to me and all I wanted to do was lock myself in an empty room. This feeling started as soon as I brought my baby girl home from the hospital, when it was just me, her and my husband. Everything felt so lost around me, I couldn't even brush my teeth without hearing her cry in the other room. I felt as if I were doing something wrong, like I was a horrible mother. But now I realize that babies are just going to cry, even if they have been fed, changed and bathed. It took almost 6 weeks for me to get the groove of the new routine and to finally get my happy self back and enjoy the amazing baby that I brought into this world. Looking back at that time where the depression hit me the worst makes me extremely upset to think about. I can't believe I looked at my baby in any other way but with pure love and joy. It happens and it's soooo normal, don't ever feel like your alone because it happens to even the most put together person. If there is any advice that I could offer to help you once your baby comes along or if your going through it now is to keep busy. As if a baby doesn't keep you busy enough!! Do things that you love to do, read a book while he/she is asleep, go on a walk with he/she in the stroller, or take the baby out with your husband and enjoy a dinner. Yes!! I said go out to dinner. I was so scared to take my newborn out with a fear that she would just cry and I would keep the bad mom looks. Well, I didn't! And I'm so happy I did it because having a baby doesn't mean you don't deserve to treat yourself, after all, you are the one who put in all the hard work to deliver your baby. Have your parents or a good friend or relative watch your baby while you go do something. Your not awful if you need a break, and chances are that your friends and family are more than excited to watch the little one. Keep your head up and know things WILL get better.
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