First off, it amazes me that I even have time to get on here and write this, but I won't complain because that means I am enjoying some alone time and peace for once! Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my baby, more than anything but sometimes the darkest spot in the house seems so wonderful at times. Reading from the title I am a part time single mommy and wife, yep you heard that right!! 6 months out of the year I am completely alone to do everything all by myself and the other 6 months I have my amazing husband home to somewhat help out lol. I feel like I need therapy sessions where they've replaced the water dispenser with wine and the are you depressed posters with channing tatums hot body. Why does this place not exist!! Mommy rehab is all I need, once or twice, maybe 3 times a week will do just fine. I don't think I'm asking for to much here. If my husband can go away 2 weeks at at time to work I think I earned some couch time with a humerous therapist who tells me I'm pretty and that my sweat pants are totally complimenting my post partum body. Anywho.... I am a full time mom and I do love it. There is nothing better than waking up in a panic because it's been 3 hours without the baby waking up and your wondering what the hell is wrong when in doubt she is peacefully sleeping. Sometimes my mommy senses are completely off lol.
With being as busy as I am with getting up, rushing me and my daughter to get ready so I can take her to daycare, then hurry to work so I don't get yelled at for being late for the bajillionth time this month, picking her back up from daycare, going home to cook, clean, and do any schoolwork that I can squeeze in along with trying to at least shower once this week and then dragging my measly tired body into bed why have I not budged on losing this baby weight? It is sooo damn frustrating that I can be so busy, eat right, and it just wants to hang out because it got to comfortable to go anywhere. Or maybe its because I eat my weight in cookies under the sheets once the lights go out... that's right, no shame here. My life is so chaotic, I would of never imagined it being this way. For instance, I am renting an apartment so my mom has to watch my dog, whom is a pitbull and is banned from any renting places in the state. So I get the pleasure of hearing my mom bitch 24 hours a day while I have a screaming baby on my hip, a scorching headache and pondering thoughts of running away. 2 Seconds ago I just hit my damn funny bone on the edge of the desk... ughhh. Have you ever seen the movie click? You know, the one adam sandler that never gets a break so he gets a magic remote that controls his life. I always think of that movie, Like man I wish I had a remote so I could just pause something so I could sleep for days and wake up like it never happened and continue where I left off. Then I remember the end of that movie and I think hmmmm probably not a good idea. Welp, that went a bit in the other direction but thats what happens when you run on 10 hours of sleep in a week and you've cut out caffeine because you think it's going to help you lose weight when in reality it's just going to make you extremely cranky and you realize coffee is golden liquid and you need it to survive. I'm on my tenth bottle of water and I swear it's doing nothing but making my weak bladder worse and forcing me to pick up smoking... sike!! Somehow this blog of me being this strong woman who can stay home and take care of the house and baby while the husband is away turned into me complaining and breaking down a bit. Anybody up for a backrub? I could use one right about now, maybe I should do something other than complain, like pour me a cup of joe and get back to my routine. No!! I have to stick to this. :)
Until next time....
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